Baby #3
Hey guys! So I have had a lot on my mind lately so I decided to actually blog about it! *Gasp* I know I haven't actually written a blog in awhile, just vlogs. Mostly because I'm horrible at writing. So bare with me as I write this. Here goes...
This pregnancy is coming to an end. I am feeling super excited to not be pregnant anymore, no more heartburn, I could sleep on my back, I could paint my toe nails without help, I could bend over, wear my cute clothes again. I mean my list could go on and on and on. Literally! But I am feeling very strange about this baby being my last. I know for a fact three is our max, but it's still weird thinking there won't be a baby in my tummy dancing around in there ever again. I mean ever ever again. Ever. This pregnancy is going by so fast I just want it to slow down a tad. Besides the fact I can't get out of my head the strangeness of having three children! I know I will love it, I know my kids will love it and I know Ethan will love it. It's just going to be different. Different is good. I, however, get emotional about change. I remember the couple weeks leading up to having Nevaeh and I got the same way. Thinking things like: Austin won't be my baby anymore, will he like his sister, can I love them equally? That's how I am feeling today. Maybe it's just my anxiousness of having this baby that is making me feel this way. I have no idea. I wonder, am I the only pregnant Mom who feels like this? Don't get me wrong I am so frickin excited to meet this guy and see his little face and snuggle the crap out of him, see his personality as he grows up, and see who he will turn out to be. Trust me I'm more excited to meet him than anything in this world right now.
Anyways that is kind of how I am feeling! Please let me know if you felt like this too or if I'm just being crazy and over thinking (which I do a lot!)
Hope you enjoy this quick snippet into my brain at the moment!
Peace.
